In a Fog

Well, blogging all November didn’t go so hot.  Actually, not much in the second half of November went so hot.  The election threw me for a loop.  The horrible things people are doing in the name of the president-elect continue to make me depressed.

I have a long history of depression and I’m not managing it too well right now.  I need to go exercise.  I need to stay off Facebook.  I need to do some yoga.  But, I haven’t.

Tomorrow if my favorite holiday of the year.  I’m going to be grateful and then I’m going to get to work.

Fall Back

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Daylight savings time ends tonight and we “fall back” an hour.  I’m planning on using this to my advantage by trying not to acclimate and instead wake up an hour early every day to exercise and make breakfast.  My goal is 6:30 every morning, which should give me about 30 minutes to exercise and enough time to make eggs or a smoothie.

 

And Look at the Stars

Have you ever had one of those days?  I did today.  It was pretty bad, with news that me mad a bit sad, a lot angry and a big craving to eat all the fried food.  Instead I grabbed a slice of pizza for lunch, went for hibachi with a friend for dinner, had quite a bit of wine and laughter with a group of friends, tracked it, and decided to move on.

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Weigh In #7

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I weighed in this morning and was very excited to see a loss of 3.8 pounds, which got me my second 5 pound star for an overall loss of 10.8 pounds!

That gets me very close to my 5%, only 2.2 pounds away, which I am hoping to get to before Thanksgiving.

Inherent Worth and Dignity

I am in my second year of UU Wellspring, a spiritual enrichment program for Unitarian Universalists.  We are currently doing the “Deep Questions” curriculum which looks at the 7 UU principles and their meaning in our life.

The first principle is the belief in “the inherent worth and dignity of every person.”  We discussed a lot about how we see this belief in our life and our interactions with others.  It surprised me, however, in my research on this, that I didn’t find anything on the inherent worth and dignity of self.

My entire journey to health is, at its core, based in the belief that I have inherent worth.  This worth means that I need to treat myself well, just like I would others.  I think of how I talk to my friends and how that differs from how I talk to myself.  I need to love myself the same way.

This is something I am going to keep digging into, as I was asked to prepare a sermon on it by my pastor, which is really exciting.

November Goals

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It is hard to believe that another month has begun.  The holiday season is upon us, which means lots of fun, but lots of business, too.  I didn’t stay on track very well for October, so I’m planning to get back to basics this month.

  1. At least 7000 steps per day, with some form of intentional movement daily.
  2. Exercise at least 3 times a week for at least 15 minutes.
  3. Be down 15 total pounds since joining Weight Watchers, which means I’ll get 2 5-pound stars.  I’m so close to 10 pounds!!!  It’ll also get my to 5% and on my way to 10% lost.
  4. Consign my sons old cloth diapers and give away all of his old clothing to a friend with a little boy.
  5. Decorate for Thanksgiving/Autumn.
  6. Rock as a presenter at a national conference.
  7. Begin my Design Your 2017 from Bullish.
  8. Complete a Turkey Trot 5K.
  9. Go through all of my clothes: bedroom, closet, and basement.  Sort, donate, organize.
  10. Read Madame Bovary, Middlemarch, and The Unbearable Lightness of Being before my 35th birthday at the beginning of December.

My Favorite Holiday

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Growing up Halloween was my favorite holiday.  When I was young, I’d decorate my mom’s house and yard, get dressed up, go to haunted houses, and just generally enjoy the season.  As a college student I’d go out with friends while wearing risque costumes and party the night away.

As I’ve gotten older, though, Halloween has waned in my holiday popularity.  I love to dress up my son and see the photos on Facebook of my friends’ and family’s kids, but overall I don’t enjoy it like I once did.  I think a big reason for that is I no longer feel like I need to hide or change, which is really what Halloween is all about.  I’ve also realized that if I want to be someone different, I can do that now, I don’t need to wait for Halloween.

Now my favorite holidays are Thanksgiving and Christmas Eve.  Celebrating being grateful and seeing family and friends is a much better place to be.

Why List

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I’m back to Weight Watchers, though I missed this week (need to figure out a better time), and trying to get healthy and lose weight.  “But why?” you ask.  Excellent question.

  1. Because I want to be hot.  Or if not hot, I want feel beautiful in my clothes.  Plus, clothes are nicer at smaller sizes.
  2. Speaking of which, I want to wear knee high boots and pretty stuff from Victoria’s Secret, and to fit in NY & Co. clothing again.
  3. I have a 3 year old and I want to be a fun, active mommy and show him how to live healthy.  Plus, since I have him, I obviously need to live forever, or as long as possible.
  4. On the same vein, to have a happy, healthy marriage.  We’re pretty good, but it’d be better if I felt better about myself (which is all me; my husband has loved me at every size.)
  5. To easily fit in airplane seats and rides at Disney when we go in a few years.
  6. To mitigate my PCOS and family history of heart disease.
  7. To show myself that I can do it.